Hot Baby BM


Someone just sent it to me on  rather funny :-)

>  Астматический: А... а...
> Географический: Сюда, сюда...
> Математический: Еще, еще!
> Спортивный: Быстрее! Еще, еще чуть быстрее...
> Научно-исследовательский: Глу-у-убже...
> Звериный - женщина вцепляется ногтями в спину и нечленораздельно рычит.
> Агрономический: Засади еще!
> Положительный: 0 да!
> Отрицательный: 0!.. Нет... О!.. Нет...
> Религиозный: О боже!
> Невменяемый - женщина вырывается с диким криком: " НЕ В МЕНЯ!!!"
> Суицидальный: Я сейчас умру!
> Криминальный: Ты меня убиваешь...
> Угрожающий: Если ты остановишься, я тебя убью! (Проверять искренность ее угроз не рекомендуется.)
> Инцестуальный: О, мама...
> Виртуальный: Маша [22:39:56э Кончаю 
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Impermanence :-)

Last night as I was passing the soon-to-be Holiday Market on Union Square, which always made me feel kind of happy and cozy, I realized that I really don't want 2008 to made me think of how tired I am of change, of the impermanence of all things, of how fucking quickly it all happens...of how inevitable it all is...
It made me think of how tired I am of having to be strong...of having to have the strength to be at integrity with myself...and at the same time, i can't do it in any other way...

It's such a freaking paradox...I hate change, yet I am most humbly grateful for it...

Anyway, enough мыслей вслух....I just really don't like break ups...(that's what it's all about at the moment...)
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Everything Comes Back to Nothing
Inexplicably it comes. When you least expect it. For a reason you can never know. One moment you are striving, figuring, imagining, and then, in the blink of an eye, it all disappears. The struggle disappears. The striving ­disappears. The person disappears. The world disappears. Everything disappears, and the person is like a pinpoint of light, just receding until it disappears. And there’s nobody there to witness it. The person is gone. Only, only awareness remains. Nothing else. No one to be aware. Nothing to be aware of. Only that remains itself. Then it's understood, finally and simply.
Then everything ‑ all the struggle, all the striving, all the thinking, all the figuring, all the surrendering, all the letting go, all the grabbing hold of, all the praying, all the begging, all the cursing, too ‑ was just a distraction. And only then is it seen that the person was, is, and ever will be no more than a thought. With a single thought, the person seems to re-emerge. With more thoughts, the world seems to re-emerge right out of nothing. But now you know.                                        
The incarnation is nothing more than a thought. A thousand incarnations ‑ are but a thousand thoughts. And this amazing miracle of a mirage we call the world reappears as it was before, but now you know. That's why you usually have a good laugh, because you realize that all your struggles were made up. You conjured them up out of nothing ‑ with a thought that was linked to another thought, that was then believed, that linked to another thought that was then believed. But never could it have been true, not for a second could it have actually existed. Not ever could you have actually suffered for a reason that was true ‑ only through an imagination, good, bad, indifferent. The intricacies of spiritual philosophy and theologies are just a thought within Emptiness.
And so at times we talk, and I pretend to take your struggles seriously, just as I pretended to take my own seriously. You may pretend to take your own struggles seriously from time to time, and although we pretend, we really shouldn't forget that we are pretending, that we are making up the content of our experience; we are making up the little dramas of our lives. We are making up whether we need to hold on or surrender or figure it out or pray to God or be purified or have karma cleansed ‑ it's all a thought. We just collude in this ridiculous charade of an illusion pretending that it’s real, only to reveal that it's not. There is no karma. There is nothing really to purify. There’s no problem. There is only what you create and believe to be so. And if you like it that way, have at it!                                              
But we cannot continue this absolute farce indefinitely. We cannot continue to pretend this game we play, indefinitely. It’s impossible. Everything comes back to nothing. And then it's a bit harder to hold a straight face consistently for the rest of your life.
Transcribed from a talk in Pacific Grove, CA, June 9, 2006.
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Across the Universe

Just watched this a few days ago :-) Highly recommend it. It is visually stunning and if you like the "Beatles" , it is entirely done through their songs...Enjoy :-)

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I hear rainbows are a good a smile...:-) I remember when I was going through my Teacher Initiation at a Mystery School up in Uttah, there were rainbows all over the sky right before the initiation.

So, I think rainbows at BM were a good sign too...yet another initiation took place...we'll see where it takes me ...:-)

This came from a friend of mine...made my jaw drop...
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    "Somewhere, over the rainbow"